[Personal log]

The dictum that truth always triumphs over persecution is one of the pleasant falsehoods which men repeat after one another till they pass into commonplaces, but which all experience refutes.
- - - John Stuart Mill

Time to focus. Studies and that’s all… Council term is ending soon.. let me count, 9 days’ time. No more hockey, no more distractions. I hope. All I have now is me and myself. Well, math, physics, art and general paper too. Let me see… I’m like way behind for math. Panic. I’m so clueless for physics. Dawg! I’m so slow in art. Man! And so brainless for general paper. How?

It’s a disease I tell ya. Not to be able to think. I’ve stop doing that for a while now… I feel so dumb… seriously. As if everything in my life now is spiralling out of control. Feeling quite down about hockey and my girl, even with my studies, my primary concern for now. I'm screwed.

Ha. Had a talk with Rohit, well he did most of the talking anyway. Told me to be focus. Talked about hounour and all. The spartan way of life.. (inspired by Troy) All I can say that he is indeed truly is a man of honour… someone admirable and someone who loves himself. Well he kept asking me, What I want to do in my life. I blanked out. A common thing nowadays. Like I said I am feeling so clueless. So lost. A man without a cause, Is no man at all. I’m still a boy and until the day comes when I get my divine inspiration or wake up call, boot in the arse or whatever they call it, maybe I’ll finally get it.

Wake up! Listen to myself, why am I so bitter? Innocent euphemism, suicidal agendas aside. Boy, you gotta get ya act together.