Sometimes you feel as if life is going on too fast. Your life seems to go so slowly in comparison that people cannot have to look on you differently. Some people are so caught up with wanting to do something that they end up doing nothing. I’m afraid that I may fall into that trap. You dun have to tell me for me to see wad I’m doing wrong. Let me repeat that again some people are so caught up with wanting to do something until they end up doing nothing. Does it mean that one has to look into the mechanics and the chemistry of human life in order to succeed? Success is written all over their faces. People who want to achieve it live the simple life and get high along the way. They seem to be morally depleted but whom I to pass judgment. You aren’t an angel yourself. Sometimes being shrewd and uncannily witty help. But it makes you seem so fake, so not down to earth. Definitely the pleasure and compliments would number up to infinitely many, but the function of certain criteria that gets you crazy in the cafeteria, is the madness that you seek within. You try to hide so many facades, so many masks that you end up fleeing, running away from life rather than living life. What is living life? Why do some people free to live life freely while the rules of moral conduct and holy things impose others like that? Is it really a matter of options? Can we end up saying that opps. I’ve done mistakes in my life and I have to change. I’m angry that some people that other people’s forgiveness for shit advantage. I fume to think and utterly disgusted. I know what this burning feeling in my tummy now. It’s anger. It’s frustration its’ the madness that you derive from bad experiences. You hate someone and that feeling burns inside of you. You hate, you hate, you hate. That feeling is hate; yes I know how hate feels like now. Being angry. Anger of the seven sins, you can’t really explain certain feelings in life cause you are not in the disposition of explaining it. You are not liable in explaining the things you do you don’t have a reason not to. You just change and adapt to whatever you get yourself in. you lose principals and make assumptions and poor judgment along the way but it’s not your fault. You blame circumstance. You blame the environment of you you’ve been brought into, the people that you have interacted with. You think you know yourself but you don’t. If something beyond your expectations beyond that scope crops up you lose control. Some are just too self absorbed. I need to be focused man. Need to express myself. Need to channel this frustration. This inner-hate to something more productive; you have to mould yourself. To know yourself before you can actually grow into the person other people can love and can associate to. Cause for now, like you, they themselves are confused with who they are. They have their own dilemma; they have their own ways of expressing themselves. They have their own problems. So move on. Who are you to lament? Complain and express that frustration and anger. Who may I ask? Who?

Everybody aspires to be somebody sometime. Some emotionally disjoint individuals find it extremely difficult to get over certain disjoint events in their lives. You may know yourself but you make not know how you seem like or look like to other people. If you want to you the fact that people would fear the unknown it becomes silly. There’s somebody inside everybody whom makes that somebody the person that somebody is. Thinkers a like contemplate life and look into the reasons why people behave the way they behave. They do not live by societies moral standards they life by their very own principle. They do not care what people may think what they are or who they want to be.

At times you just feel so helpless. After being exploited mentally, emotionally and physically you just hate that after taste feeling. For those with numb taste buds may only realise it later and too late. For those oversensitive fools they might realise it too early and life not knowing what they have missed out on. And some people who seem to have everything going their way just life enough. They are happy with the goals that they have set. They are happy with what they have and with who they are. Simple folks who live life simple do not complicate things and matters. Players who like to live life dangerously. Do they really enjoy what they’re doing, the moral dilemma that inner voice. Locked up in some closet somewhere? Self-petty is a futile conundrum, which drums oneself helpless and weak. Never can someone not be able to hold his self that he feels like he wants to explode. He just wants to change that game of his. Move on. Proceed in his life. And sometimes-overlapping events in life make simple things complicated. You know guys find it difficult to multitask. When they are down they go down burning. Yet those with character those with t he patience to hold on, those who people admire them for. You may have that thing, but what is that thing without being that one. People have their own thing going on. But only a few have that ‘THING’ which speaks brilliantly of who they are, speaks volumes and volumes. Association by futile connections kills the fun. Hoopla!

Highway

People who need people are People people. At any one time in your life, at any stage of it, you’ll be surrounded with different kinds of people. You can adapt and blend in and be part of the hommies, you can stand out be that outstanding one who everyone else awes at or you can be that loner who sits alone, a misfit, a nobody. Who makes these decisions for you? Who puts you where you are?

Is it the perception that people have of you or the perception you want people to have, which make you who you are? Being decisive is good but being too decisive can make one lose out on many things. An insignificant contribution or factor that compensates for your reason for existence does not really demean or consolidate your self-worth. Too much thinking can make you a bore, too little and you’re some whore. Some people do things for no reason at all while some seek the thrill; those are people who live for the moment. I find such frivolous pursuits entertaining. One seeks to find himself, giving useless advice, provides a listening ear. Some people live their life alone, afraid to make their next move. Not dare to explore whatever purpose or seek mindless fun and cheap thrills out of the things in life. One may say if not know when? When we will ever have the opportunity to express our dumpishness in our lives. What makes teens the being they are? What makes people misunderstand them and dish them aside? Why are we so hard to be figured out that sometimes people label us as the fools they deem us to be? For those broken hearted ones out there. There is life. For those cheap thrillers out there, there is death. So whatever we do in life be it good or bad. It’s a matter of perception. But does it mean that you’ve failed the people you care about of they don’t really follow what you do? Does it mean that you’ve failed everybody? You try so hard, but sometimes hard is not good enough. You try to be the person that someone thinks you are but you're nobody.