[13 minutes left]

Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocrities. The latter cannot understand it when a man does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses his intelligence.
---Albert Einstein

13 years ago i was 5 years old, young, stupid and adorable. 13 months ago i was crossing from college to college, confused, relieved, and alienated. 13 weeks ago, i was pondering, how will the hockey season go? will we finally get into the semi-finals? will we better last season's game? 13 days ago, we lost our last game, against SAJC.. 2-0, we were out of the season. 13 hours ago. i was asleep, tired, exhausted and on my bed. 13 minutes ago, i started writing this. Now it's 13:13pm..

Time seems to fly by so fast. but why am i still here?

[A moment of madness]

I preach there are all kinds of truth, your truth and somebody else's. But behind all of them there is only one truth and that is that there's no truth.
- - Flannery O'Connor "Wise Blood"

Incoherency in log does not deem author to lack sanity in mind. Just random uncut thoughts that drives man insane. Sanity lacks the common man, and the common man is full of it. Understood and misunderstood in nature, elucidates him from the call.
Innate personification per se of trivial issues that digs that basis of rudimentary and basal needs only seek to drown the common sorrow. Why common one may ask? Why not at all, the other may answer. Unwise blood flows through the innocent veins. Idocy lead to uncertainty in actions and certainty in results. Words speak bold, actions speak bolder. Yet enthralled in one’s dismay, the sadden state of mind only conscious of the latter and ignores the former. Misunderstood will man remain, until one day, dawn will truth fill their minds, hearts and soul. That one day, is today. Now, the present. Sad to say indeed, sad.

[Personal log]

The dictum that truth always triumphs over persecution is one of the pleasant falsehoods which men repeat after one another till they pass into commonplaces, but which all experience refutes.
- - - John Stuart Mill

Time to focus. Studies and that’s all… Council term is ending soon.. let me count, 9 days’ time. No more hockey, no more distractions. I hope. All I have now is me and myself. Well, math, physics, art and general paper too. Let me see… I’m like way behind for math. Panic. I’m so clueless for physics. Dawg! I’m so slow in art. Man! And so brainless for general paper. How?

It’s a disease I tell ya. Not to be able to think. I’ve stop doing that for a while now… I feel so dumb… seriously. As if everything in my life now is spiralling out of control. Feeling quite down about hockey and my girl, even with my studies, my primary concern for now. I'm screwed.

Ha. Had a talk with Rohit, well he did most of the talking anyway. Told me to be focus. Talked about hounour and all. The spartan way of life.. (inspired by Troy) All I can say that he is indeed truly is a man of honour… someone admirable and someone who loves himself. Well he kept asking me, What I want to do in my life. I blanked out. A common thing nowadays. Like I said I am feeling so clueless. So lost. A man without a cause, Is no man at all. I’m still a boy and until the day comes when I get my divine inspiration or wake up call, boot in the arse or whatever they call it, maybe I’ll finally get it.

Wake up! Listen to myself, why am I so bitter? Innocent euphemism, suicidal agendas aside. Boy, you gotta get ya act together.